Perosnal Journal

Why does a Christian Write Such Horrible Things?


I just got an email, and I wanted to address it beyond just the email with that person. It is a question that comes up often when people discover that the guy making gritty dark stuff is actually a Bible thumper who believes in the love of Christ. So, there is a disconnect in modern culture or both the secular world and the Christian world. This is a sensitive subject and I am equally at threat of being drawn and quartered by both sides. So without further word salad lets begin.

The defining thing that makes a Christian is believing they ultimately are cursed beings that will sin eternally with no ability to save themselves from their nature. This means I cannot help but sin. I will always sin and I have no ability to not sin. If you need proof of this lets look at the 10 commandments.

Thou shalt not kill. That is an easy one, right? Well, no because while we may not physically kill someone, we can murder someone in our hearts. Ever been wronged by someone and really wanted them to drop off the face of the earth. That is an example of sin. Our nature desires something that we know is wrong. Regardless of our ability to resist it, that nature is in us. It can come out.

Ever look at something and really just wanted to take it but resisted it? That again is an example of a desire to steal. We desire these things and we can resist them for some time but if put in the right situation we would violate these principals and morals. The fact it comes across the mind exposes our base sinful nature.

So I recognize Christ is my remedy because he explains that this nature is from a curse we accepted on ourselves. He paid the price as sacrifice and one day he will remedy it all. We just need to accept it. Even today I find myself having these thoughts less as I grow as a Christian.

This does not make me any better than any other person. In fact it makes me worse. I recognize what it is and I am still victim to it. I know better.

So, why do I write such horrible fiction? Why would I not? The events that take place in my writing or subjects of my art is about overcoming evil. Evil must be displayed in order to identify that evil is there. So I go to where evil lays and rip it open to be plain to see. I write evil just like evil is, evil. Evil is not the hero of my stories, it is the villain. The good guys don’t do evil acts for evil reasons. When they do it is a stumbling moment. Just like we stumble in reality with our own sin natures

My writing is a journey of discovery for every character. There may only be one character in the book that is the good in that world. However with all my writing there is a faint light in that darkness. That is why I can write such scary and horrifying things and use the dark subject matters that I use and still be a Christian. I am a writer that is a Christian, not a christian writer.

If I am going to be honest christian writers often leave a bad taste in my mouth. I find it vile to put words in God’s mouth. I try to never do such a thing. This is also why I write fiction with worlds separate from our own. I don’t take the LORD lightly when I do write. I would not want to inadvertently slander him by writing fiction about the real world. I think that is a greater sin than being someone who does not know God. If I know God and yet still subvert his authority of the world through my fiction of it, I tremble.

I don’t ever want to have to justify myself before God and be told because of my fiction several people got the wrong opinion of God. So I don’t write about God aside from non-fiction honest belief. I warn anyone who writes to keep that in mind when you are writing fiction about our world. It is God’s first and he has authority over it. Don’t usurp him.

Perosnal Journal

An Interesting Thought


Today, I was sitting down to focus on finalizing Chapter 5 of Blue Ash Crisis when a thought entered my mind. I found this thought to be of more importance than Blue Ash, so for today, I am going to be writing this post.

So I was thinking about the concept of eternity. I had watched a Youtube video earlier discussing the topic. I started thinking about the concept of being immortal. Every Christian when you come down to it, believes they are immortal. We will never die. Our flesh bodies may be lost but our spirit and souls shall live on forever.

The idea of a billion years of existence came to mind. Most likely it would be after some time spent with friends or even the Lord himself, but a thought might come to mind. The words wrung in my head. “It has just begun.” Now these words were borrowed from the video the person speaking made this exact point and it resonated with me.

Where will you be a billion years from now? Will you be crying out with joy as you discover the endlessness of eternity in a new heaven and new earth? Or, will you be screaming agony realizing the destroyed world you inhabit is your eternal abode?

I don’t like scare tactics. I can’t stand Christians who try to convert others like that. However, for some reason I feel compelled to write this. I don’t know who it is for, or even if it is for anyone at all other than myself. However, I just wanted to share that with whoever reads this.

If you love God, you will outwardly love others. You cannot love God with all your heart and hate other people. You will find yourself compelled to love the people you would normally despise. It is a strange ideal. Love God.

Forgiveness of sins is a very powerful concept. The idea our sins can be forgiven and the idea of repenting of them. It brings out an inner peace in other ways. People sin constantly. People mistreat you, they may hurt you. However, if you expect forgiveness for your sins you should forgive their sins as well. You also realize it’s hard. It’s very hard to forgive someone. Then you try to sin less. You don’t want to put anyone through the suffering of forgiving your own actions.

It’s all about love. I know, I might not seem like that kind of person, I am. We as Christians are told to be like Christ. We know Christ died for our sins. He was blameless. More so we should do all in our power to help others. We all fall short of that. Not one of us can claim ownership of righteousness. We can try though.

Love God, and where will you be in a billion years. That’s all I have for you today.